come live with me angel
11. my boyfriend sings to me, when i ask him, and its so sweet and wonderful. i could listen to him sing forever. even just his speaking voice is melodic and i love listening to him talk.12. my boyfriend has the prettiest blue eyes i have ever seen. when he used to wear his contacts to work, he would wake me up in the morning to kiss me goodbye and every morning i'd fall in love all over again when i woke up and looked into his eyes. when we're making love, i love being able to look into his eyes while we do it, because it feels so intimate, for us to watch each other like that.
13. my boyfriend was pretty much the cutest kid ever. and he grew up to be the cutest boyfriend in the world.
14. my boyfriend is absolutely brilliant, both at his job and general. i've never felt like he has ever had a hard time grasping any concept presented to him, even when i was still writing essays with weird ideas that probably shouldn't make any sense to anyone but me.
15. now this... this is an important one. my boyfriend is loving and understanding. tonight, i told him something that has been killing me for months, eating my self-esteem, making me feel unlovable, stupid, and worthless, and i wanted to... i wanted to make everything equal, to put us at a level where we know everything important about each other, everything that will impact us, and i was scared that if i never said anything it would just continue to eat at me. indeed, its been such a problem that for months ive considered just running away from it all, so i could stop feeling like ive ruined everyone's lives. but when i told him, he still... he still loved me, and he didn't need to. if he had told me he didnt i would be heart broken but i would understand, but he... he listened to me, and he even comforted me, and i am so, so, so grateful that i have blessed with someone i love so much...
this obviously isn't my first relationship, but this is the first where i've felt like i could be myself, where i don't have to defend myself all the time, where i can be happy and concentrate on making him happy, and i just--i can't stop grinning and i have tears in my eyes as i write this--where im so grateful for having him in my life and having him to life that i know right now that i absolutely want to spend my life showing him how happy he's made me and trying to make his life wonderful and i just want you to know that since you looked into my eyes and told me that you loved me, really loved me, that it has been you, dave, all you, and there has been no one else even for a second and i want to live with you and i want to be by your side and i will never hurt you or leave you and thank you for understanding why i did what i did. i only wanted to make your life easy and i know i went about it the wrong way but i didnt see a way out of it, but i made it stop and youre the only man i want, for now, for next christmas, forever.
thank you. please let me spend my life showing you how grateful i am.
i love you. 290 hours....
(unless opodo says otherwise, lol.)
posted by who's that girl @ 12/15/2005 11:24:00 pm
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